What an ebb and flow life is! Our lives were ordinary, the same day after day...loving being empty nesters in our downsized home and at the same time, having our children with their kids in and out of our home. Gardening, hunting, eating soup and salad at a local restaurant nearly every Saturday evening, ballgames, antiquing together, church and community events...we loved our life!
Then one day, life changes. Most CHANGES happen in split seconds. We went from a kind of casual but appreciating 'taking-life-for-granted' mode to a bald 'life-will-never-be-the-same-again!' Split second changes are often a shocking, dazed 'this-is-not-happening-to-me' event with emotion all over the place. Split second changes causes one to re-think life, to appreciate it in a less casual way, to be grateful for a community of family, friends and church. To choose which battle to fight, which to let go. To see the simple beauty of simple things each day. To live in gratefulness! In split second changes, I want to do it well - I want it to make me a different person, to teach me valuable lessons that change my life.
Hubs came through the surgery with flying colors and ALL of his tests clear of cancer...praise His holy name! He had little to no pain, though full recovery is going to take most of the summer. Being inactive and in recovery is, at times, difficult for him; when he feels rested he wants to DO but the energy level quickly runs out. There are still decisions to be made health-wise but we feel very, very blessed that this story ended far better than we thought!
A few pictures from his hospital stay.
Hubs had two units of blood transfusion and the grandkids were very fascinated by it all!
S asked lots of questions and could'nt wait to see grandpa in the hospital!
S brought a basket of fresh-from-the-garden produce so grandpa could get well fast!
Bless their little hearts!
We have a new normal again - life IS different. In these three weeks, I went from expecting the worst to hearing the best - and most times, I feel left behind. Sometimes I feel I'm going to burst out crying and never stop but those times are getting less. Sometimes I feel numb, dreamlike, as though this is happening to someone else. To trust God in a new way again. To trust what the doctor said is true, REALLY true.
And I refuse to live in fear!